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Kay ([personal profile] sincere) wrote2013-06-12 10:39 am

Randomizing, Remember Me, and Ladies

omg I am having too much fun playing in the [community profile] randomizing meme. I think I'll have to play Bruce after all. Mutter. Everyone should play with me here!

In other news, we're playing Remember Me on the PS3. I'm really, really enjoying it so far (we're on episode 6, I think). The cyberpunk is fun and well-developed and Nilin is an interesting character, and of course we should all approve of more lady protagonists and person of color protagonists, and I love how the story is both big-picture and personal. Some of it is messed up -- remixing memories is evil, in a fun way. I keep waiting for consequences of remixing memories, but we haven't seen any yet? Like, when does Olga come back to punch Nilin right in the throat?

Also, this game is seriously overflowing with female characters, almost all of them in positions of power. They introduce named characters with something approaching a 1:1 ratio of male to female named characters, which is... startling. I'm acutely aware of it because it recently became evident that I'm not normally aware of it.

I was roleplaying a conversation where my character is telling a story. I make up characters for this story: a male character, and a female character. Okay. That's cool. That feels fine.

The story continues, and I need to invent two more characters in my head. My instinct is to use two men. That feels comfortable. But I want a female character to have the position of power this time, because I think it would be cool, so I settle for a male character and a female character again.

But then I became uncomfortable! I seriously felt like I was shoehorning female characters in, like I was creating an unbalanced situation that favors female characters, because of my ~agenda~. I strongly felt a need to make both characters male, to make things more "natural".

But the gender ratio was still equal. There were an equal number of male and female characters. (It was already male-favoring if you count the characters who are being RPed, since they're both male.) But that's the funny thing: in our brains, we've been wired to feel like a "natural" gender ratio is male-dominated. For example, studies have shown that teachers call on male students far more than female students, and those who made an effort to call on male and female students equally felt as if they were disproportionately calling on female students and being unfair to male students.

It's one thing to know it happens, but it's another thing entirely to experience yourself doing that on a visceral level that tells you, "Equal representation just feels wrong".
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[personal profile] starsinyourwake 2013-06-12 08:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Those realizations are, to me, equal parts liberating and horrifying. Liberating because now you can work towards changing it, and horrifying because... it's a thing that happens every day, everywhere in this culture. ...actually, let me *not* talk about culture, because that is a whole other issue. :/ Yay for Remember Me being more balanced, though~
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[personal profile] slayerofgod 2013-06-14 08:05 am (UTC)(link)
If internalized sexism/misogyny were any more prevalent in fandom I'd start killing people.