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*as mike* Ohhhhhh, I am sad~.
I find myself unhappy with the universe, possibly due to boredom. It is gloomy out, with the GLOOOOOM, and possibly raining.
I can't write, I have no inspiration. I am, furthermore, unhappy with my writing, because I can't write emotion only understated suggestion of emotion, and I can't write beautiful descriptive prose like I so desperately wish I could.
It has been a week now since I sent Li-san the things she is almost a month behind on beta-reading, not including all the ones I posted without her beta-reading, and she hasn't sent me anything back. I am in the middle of midterms that depress me even though I'm doing well as far as I can see, I am in a foreign country where they speak a foreign language, I feel poor and it is raining. I would normally think to myself, I should RP and zone out of my life, only right now either people are not online or I am too deathly uninspired to go about nagging people to start an RP session that will go nowhere and say nothing and just make it worse because I won't be zoning out of my life, I'll be adding another person's life to my burden because I will have to shove every ounce of conversation out there.
I am a DORK. I blame it all on![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
zinniazayda, because we share the same brain and she has apparently been depressed recently and it's catching up with me. And if she defends herself that she is no longer depressed, then it is her fault anyway, because obviously she got rid of the depression by passing it on to me.
She may even be out to get me.
I wish I could write.
I can't write, I have no inspiration. I am, furthermore, unhappy with my writing, because I can't write emotion only understated suggestion of emotion, and I can't write beautiful descriptive prose like I so desperately wish I could.
It has been a week now since I sent Li-san the things she is almost a month behind on beta-reading, not including all the ones I posted without her beta-reading, and she hasn't sent me anything back. I am in the middle of midterms that depress me even though I'm doing well as far as I can see, I am in a foreign country where they speak a foreign language, I feel poor and it is raining. I would normally think to myself, I should RP and zone out of my life, only right now either people are not online or I am too deathly uninspired to go about nagging people to start an RP session that will go nowhere and say nothing and just make it worse because I won't be zoning out of my life, I'll be adding another person's life to my burden because I will have to shove every ounce of conversation out there.
I am a DORK. I blame it all on
zinniazayda, because we share the same brain and she has apparently been depressed recently and it's catching up with me. And if she defends herself that she is no longer depressed, then it is her fault anyway, because obviously she got rid of the depression by passing it on to me.She may even be out to get me.
I wish I could write.