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Fandom! And less antagonizing topics.
Classes are almost over. John wants to see Candidate for Goddess, which of course is a-okay with me, but I'm still kind of concerned about GetBackers. And it IS disturbingly like concern instead of enjoyment. I feel more driven than inspired -- like, of course I'm inspired, I wouldn't be able to write if my Muse didn't like the idea. But I feel like it's actually some sort of duty to write: as if I personally am responsible for bringing a large dose of heterosexuality to the fandom. I want to write the Threesome fics and stuff too, but... I feel like I need to write the Ban/Clayman fic, the MAKUBEX/Sakura fics, the Shido/Madoka fics.
Because I keep getting this sick, wretched feeling that if I don't, nobody will. The fandom will become overrun in time with silly drooling Omnislash fangirls, and all the wonderfully intelligent, thought-provoking, beautiful writers that are becoming the foundation layer of the fandom... Instead of being interested in a variety of things, instead of forming a wide, stable base, they all seem to be narrowing down that interest to "They're slashy! Look, Shido and Emishi are standing next to each other! MAKUBEX has a dolphin pendant, he's SO gay!" They all want to pair Ban and Ginji. I like that pairing -- but I won't for long if it's all that I see.
I don't feel comfortable putting my fics up on the LJ community. It's not only my conviction that I am not worthy, as a writer. It's also the fact that they don't seem even remotely interested in anything heterosexual -- which is what I'm writing, because nobody else is.
And every time I hesitantly attempt to say to these people -- people that I know are intelligent, who I know write beautiful and thought-provoking things, because I've seen them and admired them greatly when they write in other fandoms -- that I rather like the heterosexual side of things, I get comments like, "You mean Shido's straight? Oh yeah... ^_~ "
Even if it's just teasing, it makes me very angry and defensive. It makes me feel like the reminders of heterosexuality aren't welcome. Like the fandom, even at its most primitive budding foundation levels, is leaning towards Omnislash.
If the tower of Get Backers fandom is built off Omnislash from the very beginning, I hope it falls.
On a less angry note, I'm playing lots of Legend of Mana. (On my computer. Emulators RAWK!) I think it's healthy for me, because my Muse has been glowing with happiness whenever I play. Legend of Mana might not be a classic game like its predecessor -- it may not even be a coherent game, since it's made up primarily of dozens upon dozens of random elements thrown together haphazardly. But every single one of the elements is FUN and UNIQUE and, most importantly, inspirational. Lute gets all sorts of crazy ideas from Legend of Mana.
Ju-san finally had to make up the fifth character in her RPG. I'm disappointed in all of you. All six of you, who actually read this LJ. *siiiigh....*
Who am I kidding? My opinions don't matter.
Because I keep getting this sick, wretched feeling that if I don't, nobody will. The fandom will become overrun in time with silly drooling Omnislash fangirls, and all the wonderfully intelligent, thought-provoking, beautiful writers that are becoming the foundation layer of the fandom... Instead of being interested in a variety of things, instead of forming a wide, stable base, they all seem to be narrowing down that interest to "They're slashy! Look, Shido and Emishi are standing next to each other! MAKUBEX has a dolphin pendant, he's SO gay!" They all want to pair Ban and Ginji. I like that pairing -- but I won't for long if it's all that I see.
I don't feel comfortable putting my fics up on the LJ community. It's not only my conviction that I am not worthy, as a writer. It's also the fact that they don't seem even remotely interested in anything heterosexual -- which is what I'm writing, because nobody else is.
And every time I hesitantly attempt to say to these people -- people that I know are intelligent, who I know write beautiful and thought-provoking things, because I've seen them and admired them greatly when they write in other fandoms -- that I rather like the heterosexual side of things, I get comments like, "You mean Shido's straight? Oh yeah... ^_~ "
Even if it's just teasing, it makes me very angry and defensive. It makes me feel like the reminders of heterosexuality aren't welcome. Like the fandom, even at its most primitive budding foundation levels, is leaning towards Omnislash.
If the tower of Get Backers fandom is built off Omnislash from the very beginning, I hope it falls.
On a less angry note, I'm playing lots of Legend of Mana. (On my computer. Emulators RAWK!) I think it's healthy for me, because my Muse has been glowing with happiness whenever I play. Legend of Mana might not be a classic game like its predecessor -- it may not even be a coherent game, since it's made up primarily of dozens upon dozens of random elements thrown together haphazardly. But every single one of the elements is FUN and UNIQUE and, most importantly, inspirational. Lute gets all sorts of crazy ideas from Legend of Mana.
Ju-san finally had to make up the fifth character in her RPG. I'm disappointed in all of you. All six of you, who actually read this LJ. *siiiigh....*
Who am I kidding? My opinions don't matter.