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Bad Week
Despite all the amounts of shiny items that I've been busying myself with this week -- Tales of Symphonia, the final Last Rune novel, a new PDA -- it's been a really sucky last couple of days.
Here's a list, imaginary people who want to read this much of my blathering:
The Last Rune left me... flabbergasted is the best word. It ended on a somewhat flat note (half the novel was irrelevant and unnecessary first-person backstory on a character who hadn't appeared until this book, who had been only mentioned as an idolized figure in the past -- couldn't they have skipped his painfully in-depth childhood on the streets of London and gotten straight to the relevant issue about how, as an adult, he discovered the secrets of the Philosophers?) and totally tangled all the established relationships.
Spoilers begin here. If you don't want to be spoiled, or don't even pretend to care, skip down to the next spoiler bar.
The strengthening threesome between Beltan and Travis and Vani dissolved between book five and six, and suddenly out of nowhere Travis is "not in love" with Vani anymore. Now that's fine with me, because the moment Vani weaseled in between Travis and his knight in shining armor I wanted to stab her, but it's also annoying. She was a third wheel the WHOLE TIME she was causing angst between Travis and Beltan, because she kept insisting that she was in love with Travis, and Travis took forever to decide that he didn't love Beltan and he didn't love Vani, he loved them BOTH... But then in book 6 it's like "three years later" and Travis is out of love with Vani again. I don't understand this, because the whole time, people have been saying the love between Vani and Travis is "from destiny" while Beltan and Travis love each other "from the heart"... But it seems to me like Travis only loved Vani because she was right there, in his face, insisting she loved him -- maybe out of pity or a sense of obligation -- and the moment she went away he forgot about it. Perhaps this is right in the sense of Travis being fateless, but for HER to just forget about being in love with HIM when she's lived her whole life for him...
I almost respected Vani in spite of myself, and her confusing yet incredibly obnoxious romantic situations, because for this book she essentially said "Fuck men. I don't need love. I just need my daughter. THIS is love."
...for MOST of this book, that is.
Also, Hadrian and Grace, who I have devotedly 'shipped since near-intangible hints in the very first book and who have been growing steadily more hinty in the four books between that one and this one, totally did not end up together, apparently because she snapped at him once when they thought Travis would die, and he was surprised and hurt and, end. Hadrian ends up with Vani instead -- Vani! I HATE YOU! You RELATIONSHIP THIEF! -- totally at random, because there was only one hint to this and it was in the final climactic scene, and after that moment he saves Grace's life and they cling to each other in a tight embrace, and then out of nowhere Vani is in love with Farr and would go anywhere he went. This makes no sense and breaks my heart. Vani has met him several times before and couldn't have shown less interest in him, but he saves her life ONCE and suddenly she's like a schoolgirl. Fuck you.
Then, she gave away her daughter. She said, "Here, Travis, Beltan. I know you're going to be living on a different planet than I am and we'll never see each other again, but you can have our kid! I've changed my mind about being independent and loving her without needing a man to take care of us. Now I'll have Hadrian's babies, even though remember that time we were thinking about how striking he and Grace looked as a couple? Never mind that."
FUCK YOU, Vani.
Grace. First of all, in this book she's little more than Travis' sidekick -- her presence is strictly gratuitous, there's almost nothing he couldn't have done just the same without her, it was all about Travis and the things Travis was doing, and this makes me wonder exactly how much of a main character Grace ever was. Secondly, she spends this whole book complaining about how lonely she is: all her friends are falling in love and she's afraid they don't need her any more, and she's the only one left without someone to be her dearest confidant. She feels lonely for Travis during this time, wistful for their acknowledged sibling-like connection. I was afraid that if the book really screwed up she would end up learning the "life lesson" that she doesn't need anyone else to be happy, she can be happy on her own, which would've totally been besides the point because no she doesn't need anyone but she's LONELY, that's different.
But in the end she lives with Beltan and Travis and their daughter (probably not as a threesome, but it's unspecified). Which is cute but totally wrong. Beltan and Travis are together, that's not her little girl -- her little girl was Tira, on ANOTHER PLANET NOW -- and she says she learned that she was capable of love from Hadrian, even though it didn't work out, and now she knows she's happy with her new "someones", her little family of Beltan and Travis and their daughter, and I'm like, GODDAMNIT, she spent SIX BOOKS desperately needing somebody to love and everybody kept dying on her or turning out to be not right and then you kick Hadrian, who was PERFECT for her from word one, to fucking VANI, and she gets to be Beltan and Travis' new third wheel?
Poor Grace. She deserved so much better.
Spoiler space ended. I repeat, spoilers are over. However, not things you don't want to hear about.
Bleeding. No, you don't want to know any more. 'nuff said, I think.
Now the things you don't want to know about are also over, so you can keep reading.
Friends are sucking. On friend score one, I'm mildly annoyed at Rachel-san because we keep repeatedly having these discussion wherein she'll vanish for an hour or so and then come back and immediately vanish again for another hour or so, and then get logged off and not come back for days. It makes it hard to talk and do friend things. I totally understand -- there's been a wedding and you can't always control your family and all that jazz, and I wander off every now and again too, or lose track of IM windows, that sort of thing -- but we've made an agreement that we'll tell each other when things bother us so we can attempt to do something about it, but it's hard to do that when I haven't seen her in the week since. Is the woman never online? What, does she have a life or something? This is UNHEARD OF and an OUTRAGE!
On friend score two, a minor problem that's haunted me for roughly the entire duration of my relationship with Li-san came to critical overflow yesterday: when it gets late, her willpower vanishes. I have heard this story at least a hundred times in the last several years. We'll be talking intensely for hours, and then all at once she'll decide she's tired -- usually if not always when it's my turn to talk about something -- and she's physically incapable of staying awake another minute to talking to me. Sometimes she'll stay up another hour talking to one of her other friends, but I guess that doesn't count. Usually I'm okay with this, but sometimes I'm really excited about something and want to get it out now, even if it's in abbreviated version, or we've promised an equal exchange and her sleeping means she's backing out on the promise -- and then it hurts, not to mention is obnoxious, that even if I point out to her that she promised or tell her I'll make it short, she simply keeps whining and complaining and arguing until I let her go to bed, even when by doing so she actually stays up longer than if she'd just let me finish talking.
It's not that much of an effort. You're a little tired. Would it really have been so difficult to stay up the extra ten minutes to hear how the story I was already 75% of the way through telling would have ended? Pretend that I'm worth that extra ten minutes, okay? I realize that nothing in the last five years has mattered to you except Digimon Digimon Digimon so nothing I talk about could possibly interest you, but pretend.
Finally she declared me to be a superbitch for being upset "this one" time she went to bed without listening to me -- because she'd forgotten the incident two weeks ago where I begged her and she wouldn't read my four-page drabble, instead insisting that I read her twenty-page monster first, and I did read it, and then after hours and hours of painful deliberation, she finally decided she was too tired to read the four-page drabble -- or the time when she went to sleep early and told me to email her the drabbles I wanted her to read, and I did, and she blocked me for a month because she was too lazy to read them and didn't want to make excuses -- and I said, goodbye. Our friendship had essentially dissolved to the point where we would talk at each other about things the other wasn't interested in (there's only so much Digimon I can take, and only so much non-Digimon she can take) or, even better, we wouldn't talk to each other at all. More often than not, we only IM'd one another if we had something for the other to beta-read.
Oh well. I'm a superbitch. It's over. With any luck, I'll never have to hear anything about Digimon ever again. Just for not complaining about nonstop Digimon for several years, I should be automatically granted the title of best friend EVER. I mean, I was passionately devoted to Megami Kouhosei for, what, eight months, ten months, and even I thought I was getting obnoxious towards the end.
Work doesn't actually exist. I was told that I should come in July 20th for my orientation. They called after I quit my $5/hr, 14 hours a week job, to inform me that they were pushing it back to the last week of July instead. I said to myself, well, it's a vacation before I go to a real job, where I work 8-5 every day and get paid $8/hr for it.
They called me in the last week of July and said, oops, the orientation is ACTUALLY going to be held in the first week of August, this is the LAST pushback, I swear. The building just isn't finished yet.
They did have the orientation, on August the 3rd, just this week. And they told me that I would start working on Saturday and I was psyched, even though I'd only have three weeks of work before I got to school, and even though the job was less than ideal and I probably should've asked for more money.
On Friday, yesterday, they called to tell me that, oops! The building's not ready. NEXT Saturday.
I'll work for two weeks this summer....... assuming they don't push it back again, and I don't put it past them.
Edit: Glasses. My glasses are also minutely crooked, just a teensy bit tilted on one arm, which makes their angle somewhat uneven. Anyone who's worn glasses for a considerable amount of time knows that this tiny, completely intangible, microscopic tilt in one's glasses will drive one absolutely and irrevocably insane, trying to adjust them and make the tilt go away, trying to see evenly. Why must glasses be so fragile...
Ah, my new story, you are my only consolation. You and my video game and my new anime and my PDA.
Here's a list, imaginary people who want to read this much of my blathering:
The Last Rune left me... flabbergasted is the best word. It ended on a somewhat flat note (half the novel was irrelevant and unnecessary first-person backstory on a character who hadn't appeared until this book, who had been only mentioned as an idolized figure in the past -- couldn't they have skipped his painfully in-depth childhood on the streets of London and gotten straight to the relevant issue about how, as an adult, he discovered the secrets of the Philosophers?) and totally tangled all the established relationships.
Spoilers begin here. If you don't want to be spoiled, or don't even pretend to care, skip down to the next spoiler bar.
The strengthening threesome between Beltan and Travis and Vani dissolved between book five and six, and suddenly out of nowhere Travis is "not in love" with Vani anymore. Now that's fine with me, because the moment Vani weaseled in between Travis and his knight in shining armor I wanted to stab her, but it's also annoying. She was a third wheel the WHOLE TIME she was causing angst between Travis and Beltan, because she kept insisting that she was in love with Travis, and Travis took forever to decide that he didn't love Beltan and he didn't love Vani, he loved them BOTH... But then in book 6 it's like "three years later" and Travis is out of love with Vani again. I don't understand this, because the whole time, people have been saying the love between Vani and Travis is "from destiny" while Beltan and Travis love each other "from the heart"... But it seems to me like Travis only loved Vani because she was right there, in his face, insisting she loved him -- maybe out of pity or a sense of obligation -- and the moment she went away he forgot about it. Perhaps this is right in the sense of Travis being fateless, but for HER to just forget about being in love with HIM when she's lived her whole life for him...
I almost respected Vani in spite of myself, and her confusing yet incredibly obnoxious romantic situations, because for this book she essentially said "Fuck men. I don't need love. I just need my daughter. THIS is love."
...for MOST of this book, that is.
Also, Hadrian and Grace, who I have devotedly 'shipped since near-intangible hints in the very first book and who have been growing steadily more hinty in the four books between that one and this one, totally did not end up together, apparently because she snapped at him once when they thought Travis would die, and he was surprised and hurt and, end. Hadrian ends up with Vani instead -- Vani! I HATE YOU! You RELATIONSHIP THIEF! -- totally at random, because there was only one hint to this and it was in the final climactic scene, and after that moment he saves Grace's life and they cling to each other in a tight embrace, and then out of nowhere Vani is in love with Farr and would go anywhere he went. This makes no sense and breaks my heart. Vani has met him several times before and couldn't have shown less interest in him, but he saves her life ONCE and suddenly she's like a schoolgirl. Fuck you.
Then, she gave away her daughter. She said, "Here, Travis, Beltan. I know you're going to be living on a different planet than I am and we'll never see each other again, but you can have our kid! I've changed my mind about being independent and loving her without needing a man to take care of us. Now I'll have Hadrian's babies, even though remember that time we were thinking about how striking he and Grace looked as a couple? Never mind that."
FUCK YOU, Vani.
Grace. First of all, in this book she's little more than Travis' sidekick -- her presence is strictly gratuitous, there's almost nothing he couldn't have done just the same without her, it was all about Travis and the things Travis was doing, and this makes me wonder exactly how much of a main character Grace ever was. Secondly, she spends this whole book complaining about how lonely she is: all her friends are falling in love and she's afraid they don't need her any more, and she's the only one left without someone to be her dearest confidant. She feels lonely for Travis during this time, wistful for their acknowledged sibling-like connection. I was afraid that if the book really screwed up she would end up learning the "life lesson" that she doesn't need anyone else to be happy, she can be happy on her own, which would've totally been besides the point because no she doesn't need anyone but she's LONELY, that's different.
But in the end she lives with Beltan and Travis and their daughter (probably not as a threesome, but it's unspecified). Which is cute but totally wrong. Beltan and Travis are together, that's not her little girl -- her little girl was Tira, on ANOTHER PLANET NOW -- and she says she learned that she was capable of love from Hadrian, even though it didn't work out, and now she knows she's happy with her new "someones", her little family of Beltan and Travis and their daughter, and I'm like, GODDAMNIT, she spent SIX BOOKS desperately needing somebody to love and everybody kept dying on her or turning out to be not right and then you kick Hadrian, who was PERFECT for her from word one, to fucking VANI, and she gets to be Beltan and Travis' new third wheel?
Poor Grace. She deserved so much better.
Spoiler space ended. I repeat, spoilers are over. However, not things you don't want to hear about.
Bleeding. No, you don't want to know any more. 'nuff said, I think.
Now the things you don't want to know about are also over, so you can keep reading.
Friends are sucking. On friend score one, I'm mildly annoyed at Rachel-san because we keep repeatedly having these discussion wherein she'll vanish for an hour or so and then come back and immediately vanish again for another hour or so, and then get logged off and not come back for days. It makes it hard to talk and do friend things. I totally understand -- there's been a wedding and you can't always control your family and all that jazz, and I wander off every now and again too, or lose track of IM windows, that sort of thing -- but we've made an agreement that we'll tell each other when things bother us so we can attempt to do something about it, but it's hard to do that when I haven't seen her in the week since. Is the woman never online? What, does she have a life or something? This is UNHEARD OF and an OUTRAGE!
On friend score two, a minor problem that's haunted me for roughly the entire duration of my relationship with Li-san came to critical overflow yesterday: when it gets late, her willpower vanishes. I have heard this story at least a hundred times in the last several years. We'll be talking intensely for hours, and then all at once she'll decide she's tired -- usually if not always when it's my turn to talk about something -- and she's physically incapable of staying awake another minute to talking to me. Sometimes she'll stay up another hour talking to one of her other friends, but I guess that doesn't count. Usually I'm okay with this, but sometimes I'm really excited about something and want to get it out now, even if it's in abbreviated version, or we've promised an equal exchange and her sleeping means she's backing out on the promise -- and then it hurts, not to mention is obnoxious, that even if I point out to her that she promised or tell her I'll make it short, she simply keeps whining and complaining and arguing until I let her go to bed, even when by doing so she actually stays up longer than if she'd just let me finish talking.
It's not that much of an effort. You're a little tired. Would it really have been so difficult to stay up the extra ten minutes to hear how the story I was already 75% of the way through telling would have ended? Pretend that I'm worth that extra ten minutes, okay? I realize that nothing in the last five years has mattered to you except Digimon Digimon Digimon so nothing I talk about could possibly interest you, but pretend.
Finally she declared me to be a superbitch for being upset "this one" time she went to bed without listening to me -- because she'd forgotten the incident two weeks ago where I begged her and she wouldn't read my four-page drabble, instead insisting that I read her twenty-page monster first, and I did read it, and then after hours and hours of painful deliberation, she finally decided she was too tired to read the four-page drabble -- or the time when she went to sleep early and told me to email her the drabbles I wanted her to read, and I did, and she blocked me for a month because she was too lazy to read them and didn't want to make excuses -- and I said, goodbye. Our friendship had essentially dissolved to the point where we would talk at each other about things the other wasn't interested in (there's only so much Digimon I can take, and only so much non-Digimon she can take) or, even better, we wouldn't talk to each other at all. More often than not, we only IM'd one another if we had something for the other to beta-read.
Oh well. I'm a superbitch. It's over. With any luck, I'll never have to hear anything about Digimon ever again. Just for not complaining about nonstop Digimon for several years, I should be automatically granted the title of best friend EVER. I mean, I was passionately devoted to Megami Kouhosei for, what, eight months, ten months, and even I thought I was getting obnoxious towards the end.
Work doesn't actually exist. I was told that I should come in July 20th for my orientation. They called after I quit my $5/hr, 14 hours a week job, to inform me that they were pushing it back to the last week of July instead. I said to myself, well, it's a vacation before I go to a real job, where I work 8-5 every day and get paid $8/hr for it.
They called me in the last week of July and said, oops, the orientation is ACTUALLY going to be held in the first week of August, this is the LAST pushback, I swear. The building just isn't finished yet.
They did have the orientation, on August the 3rd, just this week. And they told me that I would start working on Saturday and I was psyched, even though I'd only have three weeks of work before I got to school, and even though the job was less than ideal and I probably should've asked for more money.
On Friday, yesterday, they called to tell me that, oops! The building's not ready. NEXT Saturday.
I'll work for two weeks this summer....... assuming they don't push it back again, and I don't put it past them.
Edit: Glasses. My glasses are also minutely crooked, just a teensy bit tilted on one arm, which makes their angle somewhat uneven. Anyone who's worn glasses for a considerable amount of time knows that this tiny, completely intangible, microscopic tilt in one's glasses will drive one absolutely and irrevocably insane, trying to adjust them and make the tilt go away, trying to see evenly. Why must glasses be so fragile...
Ah, my new story, you are my only consolation. You and my video game and my new anime and my PDA.
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anyway, sorry to hear about your sucky friends and job situation...
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I know how you feel about the glasses! I get a spot on mine and I flip out and scrub them. >>; Of course, I'm blind (legally), so if I don't have my glasses/contacts I run into things. Like walls. And cars. (My contacts are -7.5 and -9 respectively -- legally blind. I get to -10 and I HAVE to wear hard contacts.)
Poor Kay-san with bad books. Re-read Nightrunner. xD It'll make you feel better. You'll wanna schmuck Alec upside the head for the first book and a half, but then all's good! x3