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FYI
I don't think I clarify things very well. It occurs to me now to make the connection between the nagging and the hinting. Every time I have to hint at something and it doesn't happen... Doing it again and again is just nagging. I can't bring myself to nag. That's why these things never get discussed; by the twentieth time I'm hinting and there's no reaction, to get sulky about it and insist that I be listened to -- it's nagging. So I just leave it alone instead of making it a big deal: I no longer want to hint or nag or engage in the subject under question at all because I'll just feel like I'm being humored, considered a nuisance, at this point.
Plus, I hate confrontation.
And that's why I get walked all over. Then I think about it and it really is my fault and I just feel miserable. I was almost in tears writing that post! Boy, I suck.
But I don't feel miserable now! Several wonderful people have cheered me up. Love.
Nrgh. Just the thought of reactions... Nrgh. *dies* But not taking it back damnit.
Plus, I hate confrontation.
And that's why I get walked all over. Then I think about it and it really is my fault and I just feel miserable. I was almost in tears writing that post! Boy, I suck.
But I don't feel miserable now! Several wonderful people have cheered me up. Love.
Nrgh. Just the thought of reactions... Nrgh. *dies* But not taking it back damnit.