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I don't think I clarify things very well. It occurs to me now to make the connection between the nagging and the hinting. Every time I have to hint at something and it doesn't happen... Doing it again and again is just nagging. I can't bring myself to nag. That's why these things never get discussed; by the twentieth time I'm hinting and there's no reaction, to get sulky about it and insist that I be listened to -- it's nagging. So I just leave it alone instead of making it a big deal: I no longer want to hint or nag or engage in the subject under question at all because I'll just feel like I'm being humored, considered a nuisance, at this point.

Plus, I hate confrontation.

And that's why I get walked all over. Then I think about it and it really is my fault and I just feel miserable. I was almost in tears writing that post! Boy, I suck.

But I don't feel miserable now! Several wonderful people have cheered me up. Love.

Nrgh. Just the thought of reactions... Nrgh. *dies* But not taking it back damnit.

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I had a whole thing planned of what I was going to say and then like the absentminded idiot I am, I accidently closed it without saving. This probably should be with the prior post, but I think it also applies here.

Okay, here goes...

I was not ignoring you or snubbing you in anyway. and if it came of as that I'm sorry. I just did not want to watch the anime right then. As for the second anime that was watched and not what it was that you wished to watch, it's not often that I can actually get the third person to garner enough enthusiasm to catch up. I really do truly wish to finish the anime as soon as possible.

I think what is part of both of our problems is that neither of wish to deal with things. I would rather cover things up by being loud and obnoxious for the most part and not talk about anything serious. You become more intreverted and pull away.

Also, in retrospect, we both have very different personalities. I want us to stay good friends. You're someone that has brought a lot of good things into my life. We might have to put in a little extra work, but I think the benefits are something that are definitely worth it. *nervous beyond belief about how that comes off as*

I know you didn't mean it, and I understand how you can not really be in the mood for something. It was just... Well, lingering feeling-bad-ness built up. Because after having spent more or less the whole week going around saying, "Let's watch my anime"... It's like I said above. Even if you aren't exactly complaining about it, I feel like I'm nagging. And I feel BAD because I don't want to nag you, I just want to... SHARE stuff. So even though you're not exactly kicking and screaming, when you jump to watch some other anime, it adds to the feelings of nagging-ness.

But... yeah, we're dorks. ^^;; It's definitely worth staying friends. I mean, how would we watch more anime like dorks together if we weren't friends? It would be boring watching by ourselves. So, yes. I'm just ALWAYS worried about sounding like a nag. ^^;; That's what happens when you live with the NagQueen, I guess.

Better now. Yay!

Yeah...I don't think watching PeaceMaker or Mirage of Blaze or other stuff would have not been nearly as fun if we hadn't been able to look at each other and go "They're so gay!" every few seconds.

I'm glad we can stay dorks together! *dances*

As a matter of fact, if gladness and relief is ALWAYS so caramelly and appley, maybe we should argue more often. XD Arguments are YUMMY.

Glad you're feeling better. And I understand how you feel about confrontation, I don't think I could do so to save my life. I'm more like a hide and wait for it to blow over kinda of person. That's why I think you're so cool for being able to just come out and say "this is what's bothering me". Takes a lot to do something like that.

And I don't think you nag. *hugs* Try not to think bad about yourself.

Finally, I LOVE your icon. I know it has nothing to do with it but damn I oggled that for a few minutes. Had to say SOMETHING. ^_^

Had I been around when you posted your PSA, I would've said a few things, but since I wasn't I'll just say a few things now.

First of all: *HUG* I know EXACTLY what that's like.

Second: You don't suck. I SO would've been in tears if I were writing something like that. *hugs again*

Third: Confrontation is a necessary evil that will likely have shy people like us shaking afterward, but hey -- that's why there's always the hope that someone will be there, somewhere, who'll just... be there.

Fourth: If this is the stupidest thing you've read, feel free to ignore and/or delete the comment. >.>;

And fifth: Anyone who persists in ignoring or belittling you is just missing out on one of those wonderful friendships that are hard to find.

So... *hug*

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