FYI

[sincere]

I don't think I clarify things very well. It occurs to me now to make the connection between the nagging and the hinting. Every time I have to hint at something and it doesn't happen... Doing it again and again is just nagging. I can't bring myself to nag. That's why these things never get discussed; by the twentieth time I'm hinting and there's no reaction, to get sulky about it and insist that I be listened to -- it's nagging. So I just leave it alone instead of making it a big deal: I no longer want to hint or nag or engage in the subject under question at all because I'll just feel like I'm being humored, considered a nuisance, at this point.

Plus, I hate confrontation.

And that's why I get walked all over. Then I think about it and it really is my fault and I just feel miserable. I was almost in tears writing that post! Boy, I suck.

But I don't feel miserable now! Several wonderful people have cheered me up. Love.

Nrgh. Just the thought of reactions... Nrgh. *dies* But not taking it back damnit.

Comments

[yami-chan.livejournal.com]

Glad you're feeling better. And I understand how you feel about confrontation, I don't think I could do so to save my life. I'm more like a hide and wait for it to blow over kinda of person. That's why I think you're so cool for being able to just come out and say "this is what's bothering me". Takes a lot to do something like that.

And I don't think you nag. *hugs* Try not to think bad about yourself.

Finally, I LOVE your icon. I know it has nothing to do with it but damn I oggled that for a few minutes. Had to say SOMETHING. ^_^