FYI

[sincere]

I don't think I clarify things very well. It occurs to me now to make the connection between the nagging and the hinting. Every time I have to hint at something and it doesn't happen... Doing it again and again is just nagging. I can't bring myself to nag. That's why these things never get discussed; by the twentieth time I'm hinting and there's no reaction, to get sulky about it and insist that I be listened to -- it's nagging. So I just leave it alone instead of making it a big deal: I no longer want to hint or nag or engage in the subject under question at all because I'll just feel like I'm being humored, considered a nuisance, at this point.

Plus, I hate confrontation.

And that's why I get walked all over. Then I think about it and it really is my fault and I just feel miserable. I was almost in tears writing that post! Boy, I suck.

But I don't feel miserable now! Several wonderful people have cheered me up. Love.

Nrgh. Just the thought of reactions... Nrgh. *dies* But not taking it back damnit.

Comments

[gatafairy.livejournal.com]

Had I been around when you posted your PSA, I would've said a few things, but since I wasn't I'll just say a few things now.

First of all: *HUG* I know EXACTLY what that's like.

Second: You don't suck. I SO would've been in tears if I were writing something like that. *hugs again*

Third: Confrontation is a necessary evil that will likely have shy people like us shaking afterward, but hey -- that's why there's always the hope that someone will be there, somewhere, who'll just... be there.

Fourth: If this is the stupidest thing you've read, feel free to ignore and/or delete the comment. >.>;

And fifth: Anyone who persists in ignoring or belittling you is just missing out on one of those wonderful friendships that are hard to find.

So... *hug*