FYI

[sincere]

I don't think I clarify things very well. It occurs to me now to make the connection between the nagging and the hinting. Every time I have to hint at something and it doesn't happen... Doing it again and again is just nagging. I can't bring myself to nag. That's why these things never get discussed; by the twentieth time I'm hinting and there's no reaction, to get sulky about it and insist that I be listened to -- it's nagging. So I just leave it alone instead of making it a big deal: I no longer want to hint or nag or engage in the subject under question at all because I'll just feel like I'm being humored, considered a nuisance, at this point.

Plus, I hate confrontation.

And that's why I get walked all over. Then I think about it and it really is my fault and I just feel miserable. I was almost in tears writing that post! Boy, I suck.

But I don't feel miserable now! Several wonderful people have cheered me up. Love.

Nrgh. Just the thought of reactions... Nrgh. *dies* But not taking it back damnit.

Comments

[mojojessjo.livejournal.com]

Yeah...I don't think watching PeaceMaker or Mirage of Blaze or other stuff would have not been nearly as fun if we hadn't been able to look at each other and go "They're so gay!" every few seconds.

I'm glad we can stay dorks together! *dances*

[kay-willow.livejournal.com]

As a matter of fact, if gladness and relief is ALWAYS so caramelly and appley, maybe we should argue more often. XD Arguments are YUMMY.