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Games are not fun
Bored. Tired of working on... the things that keep coming up, like final paper abstracts and group presentations and close readings and crap. I haven't touched NaNo yet and I'm already desperately seeking distractions.
Why will no one distract me? And that is not a request for roommates to come and molest me, that's the bad sort of distraction. XD
I've spent my bored avoiding-work-period looking through RP advertisement communities again. I want people to want to play with me. But at the same time I don't want people [who want me to play J-rock-inspired angsty goth catboy ukes where I always have to be seme and actively claim that heterosexual RP is icky] to want to play with me -- and the sad thing is that even when I find new communities that I could advertise in, the people that have previously gotten irritable because I didn't like their J-rock-inspired angsty goth catboy ukes are already there. I think I'm going to post a rant to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
bad_rpers_suck... even though at least one of those players is there already too.
I'm back on the subject because someone random saw my advertisement onfictionoverlife from two months ago and IM'd me today; she sounds wonderful and we agree on things like J-rock-inspired angsty goth cowboy ukes being bad. But... well, there was a significant damper on my glee when she told me she didn't want me writing for her characters (even regarding prose re-hashing of scenes that we already played out) without permission. I don't write for other people's characters often, and when I get inspired to do so, nothing is more uninspirational than feeling like I have to validate my interest.
I understand why she would want to say that -- I know I'd feel awkward if someone wrote a character I RP'd with into a story doing things that I don't think they'd ever do -- so I'd not only want to check with her about independent story threads but even try to RP out any story scenes I wanted to write. But... even scenes that we actually RP'd previously, where I'm just mimicking the words that your character spoke and the actions that your character made? It's not like I'm not going to show them to you after the fact. I'm not an ffnet Sue-writer or anything, give me the benefit of the doubt, let me surprise you with a giftfic if I feel like it.
It's not going to affect the RP and we talked about it. Since any inspiration I may have had to write for our RP together died when I learned that independent action would totally freak her out, it won't even be a problem in the future. But right now it's kind of sad and bothersome. I wish she were as cool about me drabbling as she was about everything else -- it's been a major hot-button issue for me in the past, after all. It's kind of weird to hope that her characters aren't too cool, lest my inspiration get revived only to bring back an issue that has wounded me in the past.
Should write NaNo if I'm not going to do my Whitman abstract...
Discontent.
Why will no one distract me? And that is not a request for roommates to come and molest me, that's the bad sort of distraction. XD
I've spent my bored avoiding-work-period looking through RP advertisement communities again. I want people to want to play with me. But at the same time I don't want people [who want me to play J-rock-inspired angsty goth catboy ukes where I always have to be seme and actively claim that heterosexual RP is icky] to want to play with me -- and the sad thing is that even when I find new communities that I could advertise in, the people that have previously gotten irritable because I didn't like their J-rock-inspired angsty goth catboy ukes are already there. I think I'm going to post a rant to
bad_rpers_suck... even though at least one of those players is there already too.I'm back on the subject because someone random saw my advertisement on
fictionoverlife from two months ago and IM'd me today; she sounds wonderful and we agree on things like J-rock-inspired angsty goth cowboy ukes being bad. But... well, there was a significant damper on my glee when she told me she didn't want me writing for her characters (even regarding prose re-hashing of scenes that we already played out) without permission. I don't write for other people's characters often, and when I get inspired to do so, nothing is more uninspirational than feeling like I have to validate my interest.I understand why she would want to say that -- I know I'd feel awkward if someone wrote a character I RP'd with into a story doing things that I don't think they'd ever do -- so I'd not only want to check with her about independent story threads but even try to RP out any story scenes I wanted to write. But... even scenes that we actually RP'd previously, where I'm just mimicking the words that your character spoke and the actions that your character made? It's not like I'm not going to show them to you after the fact. I'm not an ffnet Sue-writer or anything, give me the benefit of the doubt, let me surprise you with a giftfic if I feel like it.
It's not going to affect the RP and we talked about it. Since any inspiration I may have had to write for our RP together died when I learned that independent action would totally freak her out, it won't even be a problem in the future. But right now it's kind of sad and bothersome. I wish she were as cool about me drabbling as she was about everything else -- it's been a major hot-button issue for me in the past, after all. It's kind of weird to hope that her characters aren't too cool, lest my inspiration get revived only to bring back an issue that has wounded me in the past.
Should write NaNo if I'm not going to do my Whitman abstract...
Discontent.
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I don't want people [who want me to play J-rock-inspired angsty goth catboy ukes where I always have to be seme and actively claim that heterosexual RP is icky] to want to play with me
Have I told you recently that I love you?
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I'd say post it on brps, but then a few of those j-rock ukes would come ranting to me about how much you suck. And here I am, trying to keep my mouth shut on both sides of the issue. But we both know who I'm RPing with! :P
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It's actually remarkable how quickly I totally forget about things like this, I'm apparently incapable of holding a grudge (except against J-rock ukes, I guess XD ). I re-read the entry and thought with surprise, wow, I was that annoyed? I feel kinda goofy about it now, I mean, they just don't know any better or something, poor bastards.
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