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Soap Opera Update
There are good things about the voices in your head taking on lives of their own, especially if they're original characters and may someday inspire you to/bully you into writing something serious for them and potentially making money off them.
But there are also bad things about the voices in your head taking on lives of their own, like when you can't figure out how to fix their character flaws without changing them on a fundamental level, the kind of flaws that may hurt them but which even they can't imagine themselves without, and then they lose things. I think the funniest part about this is that at the least, Sasha and Coyote haven't broken up yet -- there's no guarantee that they WILL, we're just talking about how they MIGHT -- and Sasha is already broken into a thousand little pieces and working himself carefully away from the kind of deep-seated depression that would have anybody else talking about suicide (although that is not in Sasha, no matter how hurt he is), absolutely positive that not only did he know it was coming but that he knew why, and debating how he'll leave the relationship when Coyote inevitably backs away from him.
One of the imaginary personalities in my head has entered mourning over the theoretical and unnecessary death of a relationship that he himself will instigate.
I don't think he's ever been sorrier for himself. ^^;;;; On the other hand, I suppose I should be thankful -- some people's imaginary personalities have the ability to get knocked up despite the person in command being violently against male pregnancy. Sasha has never shown any inclination towards becoming mysteriously pregnant, so I've got that much to be grateful for! He'd be grateful too, but he's hysterical.
Maybe now I can nap, since I've voiced some of the mental turmoil brought upon me by the suffering of an imaginary character. What happened to MY life? Besides the obvious fact that I didn't have one, since my idea of news is, "Sal at the deli thought my name was Lisa today."
Well, at least it doesn't look like Sasha's story will ever get written. He's well and truly convinced that there's no more point in any relationships that last longer than the single night it takes both partners to get their rocks off. Even his co-dependency is getting worn away in self-defense, and that was always his defining character trait.
You haven't even broken up yet!
EDIT: Damnit already. No sleep for the weary. I curse my family for waking me up two hours after I went to sleep for the purposes of telling me things I already know, and curse myself for not being able to go back to sleep now. I guess I'll go and read to keep Sasha from becoming more morbid than he already is. I have this horrendous feeling that even though there's a very good chance that we'll be able to work this out when we get around to actually roleplaying it, or even in conversation beforehand when we're having the discussion at some time NOT 9 AM, my mental Sasha isn't going to be in very good condition. Another negative factor in having Alive head-people -- they can be influenced by factors that exist outside the scope of their roleplay. Goddamnit, if he weren't so pathetic and I didn't love him so much he's hurting me, I'd kill him.
But there are also bad things about the voices in your head taking on lives of their own, like when you can't figure out how to fix their character flaws without changing them on a fundamental level, the kind of flaws that may hurt them but which even they can't imagine themselves without, and then they lose things. I think the funniest part about this is that at the least, Sasha and Coyote haven't broken up yet -- there's no guarantee that they WILL, we're just talking about how they MIGHT -- and Sasha is already broken into a thousand little pieces and working himself carefully away from the kind of deep-seated depression that would have anybody else talking about suicide (although that is not in Sasha, no matter how hurt he is), absolutely positive that not only did he know it was coming but that he knew why, and debating how he'll leave the relationship when Coyote inevitably backs away from him.
One of the imaginary personalities in my head has entered mourning over the theoretical and unnecessary death of a relationship that he himself will instigate.
I don't think he's ever been sorrier for himself. ^^;;;; On the other hand, I suppose I should be thankful -- some people's imaginary personalities have the ability to get knocked up despite the person in command being violently against male pregnancy. Sasha has never shown any inclination towards becoming mysteriously pregnant, so I've got that much to be grateful for! He'd be grateful too, but he's hysterical.
Maybe now I can nap, since I've voiced some of the mental turmoil brought upon me by the suffering of an imaginary character. What happened to MY life? Besides the obvious fact that I didn't have one, since my idea of news is, "Sal at the deli thought my name was Lisa today."
Well, at least it doesn't look like Sasha's story will ever get written. He's well and truly convinced that there's no more point in any relationships that last longer than the single night it takes both partners to get their rocks off. Even his co-dependency is getting worn away in self-defense, and that was always his defining character trait.
You haven't even broken up yet!
EDIT: Damnit already. No sleep for the weary. I curse my family for waking me up two hours after I went to sleep for the purposes of telling me things I already know, and curse myself for not being able to go back to sleep now. I guess I'll go and read to keep Sasha from becoming more morbid than he already is. I have this horrendous feeling that even though there's a very good chance that we'll be able to work this out when we get around to actually roleplaying it, or even in conversation beforehand when we're having the discussion at some time NOT 9 AM, my mental Sasha isn't going to be in very good condition. Another negative factor in having Alive head-people -- they can be influenced by factors that exist outside the scope of their roleplay. Goddamnit, if he weren't so pathetic and I didn't love him so much he's hurting me, I'd kill him.
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::hug:: Sorry you're feeling cranky and that Sasha's having problems. Talk to me anytime you want to. ^^
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Problems are all fixed and Sasha feels somewhat better. He felt better the moment Oliver sent him muffins. He misses muffins. ^__^ Pie-san and Oli saved him! You're an angel. Oliver totally needs to be in the 12 novels we're going to someday write about Sasha and Coyote and their assorted tag-alongs. ^^
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I'm glad the problems are fixed. ^_^ I don't like it when there's strife in my friends' lives! ::hug:: Talk to me online sometime! ^_^ Oli would love to say hi too.
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I still say if we had any patience at all... or a plot... we'd have 12 best-selling modern fantasy novels chock full of gooey smut on sale, with more waiting in the wings.
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We should totally work on the whole plot thing. I mean, if we try and piece something coherent together, we could have, like... money. And I don't know about you, but I could use money. ^_^