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I fucking hate libraries anyway

Okay, so, my academic life just got a lot worse.

I've had this project due which is truly sickening in its gratuituousness. It's on "best practices" in teaching people how to use the library: ten pages, twenty minutes. What. And I can't just do theory, no, I have to find case studies where libraries have used these practices and then evaluated their performance. I've spent hours going over the databases we were recommended to use and I honestly could hardly find anything and it was all so damn abstract none of it was making any sense.

We're also in groups for no reason at all except to complicate the issue: we're supposed to do our presentations without overlapping, so basically we have to write ten pages of paper on VARIOUS practices but come UP with twenty minutes of presentation on ONE SPECIFIC practice, which is ten pages in and of ITSELF.

My group starts emailing each other back and forth and I realize with horror that they're talking about this presentation as if it's going to happen this Tuesday, 3/14, instead of next Tuesday, 3/21. The date isn't on the syllabus. The date I have down on my day-planner is 3/21. The date I have down in my notes is 3/21.

I'm so fed up with this class, which is day after day of listening to the professor explain over and over again in different words that you need to adjust your lesson plan depending on your audience. My notes of this class literally consist of "Today's Homework:" lists and occasionally something like "Have a backup in case technology fails and you can't use Powerpoint". But now I have no choice but to drop it. This is terrible.

When I drop this class, I'll probably no longer be a full-time student.
My financial aid award will change -- will I have to make a refund?
It's too late to get a refund on the money I paid for the class.
Will I lose my health and dental coverage?
What will a "W" do to my record?
Will I have to take another goddamn semester of this torture because I'll be ONE CLASS shy of graduating in the winter?

And I can't decide whether or not it would be better to just not let my mother know. EVER.

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*Snuggles* (ah yes, a word of wisdom in, this, your time of need)

Sometimes snuggling is enough. *quietloff*

You probably won't have to refund - it's usually based on your status after a certain date. I never have. Ditto our health and dental coverage. A 'W' shouldn't really do much of anything - I have about four of them and they've never done anything to me. Do they offer summer classes? You might be able to catch up that one class over the summer.

And just don't bother telling your mother. It's not worth the aggravation. What she doesn't know won't hurt you. *hugs*

Thanks -- that's all good advice. I'm not sure if I can still register for the summer semester, but I can't just scrap the idea.

I keep having this panic instinct to call my mother when something goes wrong... Like I want her to comfort me and give me advice. But really I know better by now, and I know that I'll only hear criticism, disapproval, and get told to fix it myself.

Honey, when things fall apart calling your mother is the absolute last thing you want to do. *comforts* Hell, call ME instead if you want to - I'll turn around and call you back if you can't afford the long-distance charges, we have unlimited long distance in the US. Seriously. Do you still have my number?

That SUCKS. Is there any way at all that you can get through the project and pass the class so you won't have to go through all that?

I'd try for a summer class, because this class you're in now sounds like absolute hell!

Withdrawned classes really only affect the opinion of whatever upper educational institution you're going to be applying to next. Like, graduate schools will see a withdrawal from me because I'm an undergrad. It doesn't actually do anything, and a lot of places are pretty chill about seeing them.

Also, a hug, cause you need one.

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