dreaming on

I am vibrating with the need to play Story of Seasons. As the release date draws closer I've been filled with the need to play Harvest Moon and I keep checking Amazon to see if it's shipped yet because it said it would ship today but it also said I wouldn't get it until Thursday but it comes out tomorrow how can I wait until Thursday I will gnaw my arm off

Even though I have a midterm on Wednesday but w/e I can raise angora rabbits and camels on my farm wtf I just need this

Still having a Bleach moment, currently juggling Child of Light on Steam and Harvest Moon: A Tale of Two Towns. It's hard to get into my new job because I won't have a computer for... weeks, probably, so people just hand me huge stacks of paper to proof/label/read, so most of my work time is spent reading monotonous procedures about how procedures are decided upon until I faceplant and then stealthily reading library books on my iPhone or writing fanfic.

...Do you ever have one of those pairings that you ship so much that you can't imagine writing or roleplaying it or whatever because it's so perfect already that there's nowhere left to go, that you can't add anything to it? I think that is Renji and Rukia for me. I can't write anything except pre-canon angst for them. Once they're bffs again nothing I write feels like it could come close to expressing their perfection.

+ Don't start playing Xenogears again for no reason
Don't start playing Xenogears again for no reason
Don't start playing Xenogears again for no reason
Finish a damn video game! and not Xenogears

+ Watched the first two episodes of Galavant. It's available online. Everyone who enjoys Robin Hood: Men In Tights, saucy musicals, and/or funny things should watch it immediately.

+ Started re-outlining The Last Dreamer for scripting. A friend and I have agreed to have writing meetups IRL in the hopes that it will get us writing more. I need to have something to share!

+ Spending all my evenings organizing my stuff and it feels good. Thank you, Pinterest!

+ Having second thoughts about apping at Cerealia, and after my horrible weekend I need to give my brain time to recover anyway. Starting next week my MBA class makes Wednesdays into horrible 16-hour day ordeals, so maybe it's not good timing anyway.

2014 is going to be great. I know it. I am rooting for all of you and wishing everyone the best and going to make it as best I can.

I'm on a better track career-wise and I'm about to get full benefits working for a company that's doing well. I find that I'm still slipping into depression habits periodically -- not because I'm sad or because anything is going wrong, but because the uselessness just burns itself into your brain. So sometimes it's all I can do to get off the couch before I have to head to work.

I don't want to overtask myself and set impossible goals that I'll feel bad about failing in immediately, so I have two resolutions for 2014...

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Actually doing all right now. I managed to make myself get moving and I wrote up a modpost for randomizing for the upcoming setting; we can do some ATP tomorrow for wanted characters, and I did some Bruce tags! It's been two weeks and it feels good.

But if Blizzard offered me another 14-day trial, or if I could get a Scroll of Resurrection, it is hilarious how fast I would be playing World of Warcraft again.

But in the meantime I am playing Fire Emblem: Awakening (I love strategy games...) and I am briefly distracted by dragons! If anyone reading this is on Flight Rising who hasn't already friended me, then let me know and I will add you. I also have two guys who just hatched under the cut: ( Read more... )

The world feels so hopeless and bleak these days. I'm unemployed and depressed and every time there's news, global or national or even personal, it seems to be hideous. I keep waiting for things to get better! For us to stop saying that it's okay to murder black teenagers if you find black teenagers scary, or that there's no more racism wink wink so let's stop enforcing any laws meant to prevent the disenfranchisement of minority voters, or that we're going to do our damnedest to dictate the way all women think and feel and act and dress and get medical care because they have no value except as objects for men... and that's just America's fuckery. Let's not talk about the rest of the world, about Brazil and Egypt and...

Bleh. The real problem is that it makes me want to avoid the internet and just zone out doing nothing but playing Harvest Moon all day. In Harvest Moon, all I have to worry about is not marrying any character who looks or acts 12.

...Pacific Rim was amazing, by the way! Everyone should see it.

That was supposed to be what this journal post was about before crippling bleakness settled in.

I think I have reached an end-winter madness stage where I feel super lazy and it's dark and cold all the time and I don't ever want to get out of bed. And taxes are being horrible to me. I have decided that I will compensate for all of this by spending money. I bought lots of experimental low-cal groceries for fast days (like cottage cheese with fruit in it) and I'm going to go out and buy SHOES and CLOTHES in preparation for SPRING, DAMNIT.

Adoring Elementary. Adoring Parks & Rec. Liking HIMYM and Go On. I have the best television shows. I'm also rewatching Arrested Development because... yes.

Another book fair week is coming up at work, so that's going to be intense, but after that I get a week off for spring break, wooo! I'm hoping I can hook up with Alicia and Jason to see Oz, but maybe it's short notice. idk. SOMEONE DO THINGS WITH ME.

Jes, this is for you, for some reason.

Anyway, Mass Effect liveplay now to resume.

Just a few minutes away from the start of the new year in my timezone. So here's some thoughts.

This was a big year for me -- I moved across the country and I made a new life in a new city and I finally got a job in my field, after years of trying and failing.

Things I want to do in 2013:

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Dreaming big.

Happy New Year to all of you. I'm hoping that for everyone who reads this -- people I care for, and new subscribers, and total strangers -- I hope 2013 is a year where we all become better human beings, or at least evolve into higher lifeforms in brain containers where all strife seems a distant archive of our historical collective mind. ♥

This week sucks already.

And I haven't even started working my 10.5 hour workdays yet!

Book fairs are a brutal, soul-sucking business.

So, I'm employed again! Hooray! And this time I'm working in an actual library! Like an actual librarian!

I'm working at a charter school with an enviromental/science focus in what is technically inner city Philly. There's only about 600 kids there, K through 8, and it doesn't pay great, but the important thing is that I am gaining experience in 1) a library, and 2) working with kids, both things I was sadly lacking before.

Oh, and I only work 7 hours a day. That's pretty sweet. I only get limited healthcare for this position, but I do get a bunch of paid holidays, paid days off if the school declares a snow day, and of course summers off. Plus the school is only four miles from my apartment!

It feels so good. And the kids are kind of adorable, even though I am intimidated by them. And by everyone else, really. People say hi to me for no reason. You can't put pressure on me like that!!

Everyone who hasn't seen this yet needs to watch it right now. Credit to demiurgic as the genius who linked it to me.


I'm thinking about taking up Twitter again, but I might want to start a new one instead of reusing my old one... And maybe I should just channel those thoughts into DW instead of being afraid to post to DW without a big essay of words. But I went on my Twitter account and saw all these funny/useful/informative things I'd been following that I wouldn't have known about because I never use it...


My phone had an adventure through the washing machine that did not end well, a few days ago. But on the bright side... I now have an iPhone. On the down side... I have an iPhone...

/lies down to die