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ANGST.
So everything is shaping up for Boston -- Simmons is going to send me checks for all my financial aid money that doesn't go directly into my tuition, so I won't need to put myself eyeballs-deep in debt to get an apartment. My mother keeps assuming I'm going to stay here, keeps wanting me to take driving tests (even though the one in MA is easier than NY) and get jobs (even though I could easily score a part-time library position in Boston) etc, "just in case".
But the apartment I want seems to be full of girls who are genuinely interested in me, as opposed to the others, who have hordes of other people to show around and one of whom has already filled the apartment... It's shaping up nicely. Provided my room isn't a glorified walk-in closet, I'm going to get out of here, which is awesome, because my mother and I have been getting on each other's nerves more and more.
...only...
My local Barnes and Noble -- B&N, who told me they weren't hiring for full-time -- just called to tell me they have a position open they want to interview me for. Lead bookseller in the bargain books section, full time.
...I don't want to stay here. I can't. And I'd feel horrible taking that job and then dropping it like a hot rock in August, telling them, "Yeah, turns out I was admitted to a grad school. SURPRISE!"
...but if I tell my mother about it, I know she'll want me to stay here and take the job. I will never hear the end of it. Ever. Suddenly moving to Boston early will become a non-option.
So everything is shaping up for Boston -- Simmons is going to send me checks for all my financial aid money that doesn't go directly into my tuition, so I won't need to put myself eyeballs-deep in debt to get an apartment. My mother keeps assuming I'm going to stay here, keeps wanting me to take driving tests (even though the one in MA is easier than NY) and get jobs (even though I could easily score a part-time library position in Boston) etc, "just in case".
But the apartment I want seems to be full of girls who are genuinely interested in me, as opposed to the others, who have hordes of other people to show around and one of whom has already filled the apartment... It's shaping up nicely. Provided my room isn't a glorified walk-in closet, I'm going to get out of here, which is awesome, because my mother and I have been getting on each other's nerves more and more.
...only...
My local Barnes and Noble -- B&N, who told me they weren't hiring for full-time -- just called to tell me they have a position open they want to interview me for. Lead bookseller in the bargain books section, full time.
...I don't want to stay here. I can't. And I'd feel horrible taking that job and then dropping it like a hot rock in August, telling them, "Yeah, turns out I was admitted to a grad school. SURPRISE!"
...but if I tell my mother about it, I know she'll want me to stay here and take the job. I will never hear the end of it. Ever. Suddenly moving to Boston early will become a non-option.