PSA

It occurs to me that there are, as yet, a number of people who should know me who don't. Several of these people have been pissing me off lately. Instead of having several separate arguments and feeling tremendously uncomfortable each time, I'm just going to make one general declaration and you can all bitch at me from there. If you don't know me then probably this doesn't pertain to you.

( Why is it always wrong and hurtful when you want other people to be interested in the things you're interested in? )

FYI

I don't think I clarify things very well. It occurs to me now to make the connection between the nagging and the hinting. Every time I have to hint at something and it doesn't happen... Doing it again and again is just nagging. I can't bring myself to nag. That's why these things never get discussed; by the twentieth time I'm hinting and there's no reaction, to get sulky about it and insist that I be listened to -- it's nagging. So I just leave it alone instead of making it a big deal: I no longer want to hint or nag or engage in the subject under question at all because I'll just feel like I'm being humored, considered a nuisance, at this point.

Plus, I hate confrontation.

And that's why I get walked all over. Then I think about it and it really is my fault and I just feel miserable. I was almost in tears writing that post! Boy, I suck.

But I don't feel miserable now! Several wonderful people have cheered me up. Love.

Nrgh. Just the thought of reactions... Nrgh. *dies* But not taking it back damnit.