dreaming on

Autoplay videos and videos that take you through a playlist even though you only clicked on one video are a scourge upon our Internet.

I know that I've already recently complained about watching TV shows online, but I'm going to complain about it again. I was trying to watch The Daily Show and The Nightly Show on Comedy Central's website, but the videos kept hanging on commercial breaks and never loading. So I thought, I'll watch them on Hulu, until I remembered that Hulu is a pain in the ass, also often hanging on commercial breaks while in addition mandating that I turn off my ad-blocker, forcing ads even on paid users, and playing commercials much louder than the actual show, a gross assault of capitalism which has literally been banned on actual TV.

So I thought, I'll watch it on Xfinity TV, and then I remembered that Comcast is a disgusting monster trying to ruin the Internet that refuses to play nice with any of my electronics and is planning to take over the damn world.



The last 24 hours has been awful and stressful, except that I sat down last night to peck at my final research paper (which I hadn't touched yet, due on Sunday) and wrote 85% of it in one fevered swoop that I didn't surface from until it was 11:30PM.

Me: Hello, I'm here because of my crippling shoulder pain.
Them: Okay. Do you want a flu shot while you're here?
Me: Yes please.
Them: This is going to feel like someone punched you in the arm.
Me: It already does.

And that's the story of how I spent like 90 minutes today driving one-handed! I also now have a bunch of steroids to take to hopefully cure myself of crippling shoulder pain.

I can't play video games with one T-rex arm. My life is hard.

I also can't really type, but I wanted to share.

I don't even know how to live anymore, although part of it is because I'm under the weather. I've been playing Avengers Alliance like the sad pathetic addict I am. I haven't done laundry, haven't tagged at havenrpg, haven't written any of my many fic in progress, haven't posted... I'M SORRY, NEW JOURNAL FRIENDS, AND EVERYONE WAITING ON SIF TAGS. I just come home and sit in my chair and click on things.

Speaking of AA, I go through brief periods where I'm totally diehard in love with Doom/Loki. I should stress that I am not a big comic fan and I have read almost nothing of Doom's canon. All I know is that I am intensely into what I've seen in Loki's canon, their villainfriends "Oh, you!"-style affectionate backstabbing and poisoning attempts etc. Any pair of people who will eat dinner together, pause and go, "Did you poison this?" "Well, yes, but I figured you could handle it," and then chuckle and go back to eating and plotting world domination together... that's okay with me.

+9000 because Loki hangs out with Doom while in Sif ladyform, and while he's being all hot vampy Lady Loki around him, Doom canonically has a kinky power fantasy about chaining him to his throne like that.

But it comes and goes, probably because I don't know Victor von DOOM! as well as I should. It would probably involve reading Fantastic Four comics? Brr. I eventually go "Eh, I'd rather write Loki with Asgardians/Avengers/other characters I know and like better because they actually exist in MCU and I know how MCU Loki would react with them."

Still, it came back yesterday with a vengeance, because I was playing Avengers Alliance and Loki is wreaking hell in Special Ops 5.2 and everyone stops in the middle of the chaos while frost giants and mafia are rampaging through NYC to go, "Okay, we have to figure out if Doom is involved in this, because the last fucking thing we need is Loki's boyfriend villain bff, SHIELD's #1 most wanted bad guy, to surprise us." And then there's a mini-mission and they figure out Doom is not involved, but, quote, "It's only a matter of time." Because Loki has Doom wrapped around his fingers, I guess.

Love it.

HOBBIT TONIGHT! GOT MY TICKETS, I'M EXCITED.

Things are happeninggggg to quote Liz Lemon. It's really very annoying. TransUnion is running around telling everyone who asked that my identity may have been stolen, but no one was going to contact me about it. Apparently, when a major credit reporting organization that you didn't even know was monitoring you decides that your identity might be compromised, it's your responsibility to contact them and fix it. And then, of course, when you contact them, all their information for you is wrong, and it's your responsibility to fix it. Exciting times.

But it is exciting! Because soon temples will be here! /slowly does laundry



My new favorite thing: Loki, are you... are you flirting with Victor von Doom? Just checking.

(And check out his fabulous nails. I love comic!Loki's black nail polish, but I also love the fact that his nails are longer than mine.)

It's time for

AHHHH WE DON'T HAVE ENOUGH BOXES
AHHHH WE HAVE TOO MANY THINGS
AHHHH WE HAVE SEVEN DAYS LEFT AND THERE'S SO MUCH CRAP LEFT TO PACK

/sits down and sobs

I'm going to explain why Plurk is the bane of my existence, and why I have been so much happier without it. Every time I go back, I inevitably see something that makes me twitch and close it again.

For a while, Plurk does make me feel, and I believe did make me feel, more in tune with people. It's amazing! Now I can be in touch with almost everyone, all the time! But the magic wears off. On Plurk, you're inundated with the thoughts of people who are near-strangers to you constantly, and there's a lot of reasons this might be problematic. Maybe you feel compelled to share things that didn't need to be shared. Maybe things you didn't even care about before now irritate you. Maybe you learn new, ugly things you didn't want to know about the people in your social circle. Maybe you just suffer overload: empathy fatigue and information flood all the time, every day, constantly sucking you in and sucking your spirit out.

And once the magic wears off, you're left with a lot of the following:

+ My games that you're not in are amazing!!!
+ Here are all the things I hate about that thing you love.
+ This is a passive-aggressive plurk designed to tell people you know and like that I am upset with them without actually saying so.
+ This is a plain old aggressive plurk about the players, characters, or situations that I hate.
+ Click here for the most depressing world and/or U.S. news update I could find.
+ Here is my inflammatory opinion about a topic that is going to make you grit your teeth, either because of me or because of the arguments within.
+ Today I feel like the worst human being in the whole world and I want to quit everything and move to Antarctica.
+ [meme] Tell me how awesome I am or I will assume you hate me, even though I ask you to do this in various ways four times each week!
+ [meme] Plot with me, if you're one of my favorite players!
+ I'm not "into" your game. or Your game is making me feel bad. or Your game is inferior to my other game.
+ Do you have an impending sense of doom about everything you enjoy yet? Let me add to it with my deliberately nonspecific brooding.
+ omg omg one of my 159 friends unfriended me on Plurk and I can't sleep until I find out who

Every single day. I have tried scaling back; I have 100 friends on Plurk but I only follow about 30 of them. But even then I get 40~ updates per hour. It's a lot. And it's exhausting. And it consumes you.

I'm not saying I'm not partially guilty myself, and I'm not saying you're a terrible person if you have ever made one of these plurks. On the contrary, I'm saying Plurk brings out that petty part of people, because Plurk is, itself, petty. These are all things present in our daily lives, but not pervasive. They're pervasive because 30 or 100 people updating you 2-3 times an hour on their life is bound to go there.

And when I shut myself off from that, I slowly get pieces of myself back. Like my patience and my tolerance and my enjoyment of my life.

I'm sorry, Plurk. Maybe it's just me. But I'm happier without you. I think we should stay casual acquaintances.

Okay, Dreamwidth. I am getting really tired of your "helpful" hover menu. >_>

The hover menu, ideally, would tell me the name of the journal in question, the keywords for the icon in question, and -- if there is an option to change the person's status in my circle -- at least make it require a second fucking click.

How many times do I have to accidentally add friends or grant access or remove access or remove friends before I get out off my lazy behind and see where I would go to suggest that they change this? Let's find out.

A little while ago there was a secret on fandomsecrets. It stated that the anon secret-maker could never apply for a game where they used "god-modding" instead of the correct form, "god-moding".

Ever since I read that secret, it's been the same for me. It's always been a pet peeve of mine, but now it's actively more like a tic. I just can't play in your game if you don't know that it's god-mode, not god-mod. This is logically sound! God-mod does not make sense as a phrase! If the mod doesn't have godlike powers over the game, who does? Yes, an abusive mod can be a bad thing, but the phrase does not refer to abusive mods, does it? God mode, on the other hand, is a mode that overzealous players can slip into where they control other characters. Do you see how this concept works?

lern 2 english language

But it's such a stupid complaint that I'm sure I'd get laughed at if I said anything. I've had normal, intelligent people argue with me about whether or not it's god-mode or god-mod. I've seen people get really bitchy when even semantic portions of their RPs were criticized. And I'd feel bad pointing it out at every fucking RP I see, because they're all making this mistake sfdagsdf

I love FSTs so much and I want to make them (like, seven of them, DAMN YOU REQUEST MONTH) but I always feel bad about making them because I feel like I don't listen to interesting enough music. :(

Matchbox 20, wow
No one will ever have heard "If You're Gone" before!

Sigh. 1450 songs on my iPod -- surely some of them must not be terribly boring to anyone who's listened to the radio since 1987!